important criteria :)

Boyfriend/Hubby important criteria

1. no piercing/tattoo.
2. no alcohol.
3. no drugs.
4. no free sex/flirtin.
5. no hair color other than black and brown.

As simple as that. Can't cope with it? Then go and don't ever come back! Yes, I'm not that cool (if this is your definition of 'cool'). And I don't care. You choose!

p.s : I rather to lose someone that I love, knowing that those things are more important than me. I'm not changing u for who u are, but I'm changing u to be a better person.

my uʍop ǝpısdn life.

Fuuhhh.. Fuuhhhh.. *bersihkan habuk* Lamanya tak singgah kemari. Its been a while. Miss me peeps? :P awww i know! ♥

What is my current update eh?  OH!

I know how to write uʍop ǝpısdn ! LOL :P

HAHA not only the letters are upside down, my life is! But currently, I'm happy with people around me. But not with certain bad not so good people. *sighh

WORK : Moved to PJ office. Love it coz close with my girls but travel jauh from house :( In terms of workloads, sangat banyak but I'm doing quite well in work. Less or no internal error, high productivity and accuracy among all the team members. :) Bukan perasan sendiri, but we do tracked each and every person's performance EVERYDAY in internal error and productivity. So far, I don't have to pay penalty for errors made!

But yeah, because of that, obviously ada certain people yang dengki and x puas hati!
Lantak pi kat hang la. Like I care? Yang penting, all of us know siapa yg perform well, and who doesn't. I advise u to improve your work than only talk and stab people's back. :)

LOVE : Ryan is grown up now. Bigger and yes, adorable! Kan best kalau Ryan boleh cakap and pamper me like human being do. Tak payah cari BF dah. LOL! Anyway, I did have some crush on someone. But then found out that he's just MARRIED! Adoi.. Heartbroken lagi.. :( My future, di mana kamu?? I'm here :)

FRIENDS : They are being such the bestest people in the world! Always being around me whenever I need them. Did a lot of hangout and catching up now. And I love it! ♥ Thanks sayangsssss... Anyway, something bad happened to one of my BFF. If I know who did that, I'll cut you into pieces, bitch!

FAMILY : I miss my mum! I miss her delicious cook, miss our talk yang merapu sana sini. Bila la nak holiday lagii.. :( Im finding a perfect time to go back and have those things! Wait for me! Anyway, my sisters came down to KL and paid me a visit for two days. Managed to spend one whole day with them ♥ Lama kan x kuar macam ni? :) And hello cousins! Rindu gila tau takkk???

PLANS : I'm going to Perhentian Island in two weeks time. Extremely excited and happy! Oh and I got plan trip to Singapore this June! Also my Johorian friends are planning something for our gathering. Looking forward for it!! ♥ ♥

Oh now I realise there's much UPs than DOWNs. I feel blessed and loved.

Alhamdulillah ♥

p.s : I miss all my long lost friends, KPTM friends to be exact. Syada, C-ha, Mai, jom buat gathering!! Ape cerita ni??

I'm lucky.

I'm recovering. :))

It's a learning process now. To know him better, and for him to know myself better.
Some may say that it's too early for us to see each other after the 'day'. I also thought about it. But hell about others, we do what we want to do.

We are happy now. Yes, I know by doing this, we could hardly move on. We are still love each other, and that's the fact. We are still hoping, I know. Even so, we didn't push ourselves to get together back. That's a good thing. :) Just let it be like it should be. We are not in a rush. I don't want to make a wrong decision, again. I believe, he feels the same. If we really meant to be together, sooner or later, we'll be together, again. Thanks for those who always pray for us and care about our relationship. Some friends feel sad. Me? You would never know what I feel inside.

I want to thank zillion times to each one of you who keeps on supporting me all this while. During my ups and DOWNS. For always asking me whether I'm ok or not. For always be there when I need someone to talk badly. For giving me strength to move on. For keep me accompany to make me feel that I am not alone. For all the advices, and those magical words to heal the pain. For putting positive thinking in to my mind. For all the L♥VE you gave me. I couldn't ask for more. I couldn't pay you back. But I'll try my best to be the best-est friend you ever had.

♥

Kyle and Bella.. You really made my day. Even you Kyle, naughty boy. I love both of you so much. Both of you actually are the reason why me and him still can talk and sit together. Kyle, do behave with daddy. Don't bite, don't shout, be friendly. And also, don't make out with Bella. Both of you are still babiesss.. :) hehe.. Hopefully, you will be as tame as Bella soon. :))

♥

Family members especially his mum. Other family members didn't know the actually reason  why we broke up except his mum. I'm sorry for not telling you guys but its better to left it unsaid. Still, u guys support me endlessly. Thank you. To mama (his mum), thank you for your advices and supports, and for loving me as your daughter, not as your son's GF. You're the coolest mum I ever known! Seriously.

♥

And lastly, you. You know you are the best thing that could ever happen in my life. You know how I feel, you know how deep my love is. Thanks for always be there for me. Thanks for granting your promise, to be friends after we broke up. I'll pray for your happiness no matter with who. 4 years memories with you, will remain in my heart. I promise! Do take a BIG care of yourself. I know you can do it without me. I miss you. :(

♥ 

Yes, I'm lucky to have these people in my life! :)

THANK YOU!!

My adorable babies ♥

Yesterday was a tiring day. Went to Shah Alam to see my BF. Hehe my new BF is actually a sugar glider! :P His name is Kyle, 2 months old and handsome! But he is soooo garaaaaaaang :( I found it very hard to tame him and feels like giving up already. :( be strong mai! He's unlike Bella (another sugar glider) who is soo manja with me and cutee! We choose Kyle because he's so handsome. Got nice fur and colour. But yeahh, so garang! I think Kyle memang x pernah kena pegang orang or being pampered with his previous owner. I mean the actual owner is sugar glider's breeder. So yeah, got A LOT of sugar glider and his purpose is to make big profit only! sigh.. Hopefully Kyle will be as tame as Bella soon! *finger crossed!*

Oh ya.. And I also did my haircut at Shah Alam yesterday. Loveeee it so much! :D The hairdresser is also cute maaa.. :P Next time, I only wanna do my haircut at Shah Alam and with Steve only! Happy :) Anyway, enjoy the pictures of my adorable babies ♥

This is Bella ♥ (female)
See, manja kan dia? She was just playing around with me. :)

This is Kyle ♥ (male)

See, garang kan dia? :( hehe.. I was trying to calm him down.

Can you see their differences? :P But one thing similar about them is they are cuteeeeee.. Rasa nak squeeze2 and gigit2 je! Haha.. Love both of them. Muahhhh! ♥

Friday is always be my HAPPY day!

Waiting for Friday againnnn... :))
Going to meet my future BF!
Yippie!

oh, I'm in love! ♥

I'll be fine.

Heart is beating fast.
Mind couldn't stop thinking.
Mostly, negative thoughts.
What and why? Don't ask.
Coz me myself also can't find the root of this matter.
Mahu keraskan hati. Sekeras kerasnya.
Tapi tak mahu keras seperti ice.
Yang akan melt akhirnya.
Mungkin keras seperti batu.
Ya, sekeras itu. Hopefully boleh.
Maybe I should stop thinking.
Thinking about this matter.
No I rephrase, STOP thinking about YOU.
How I wish it could be that easy.
Can I just press on 'shift' and 'del' of my keyboard of LIFE which can permanently delete you?
How I wish those keys exist.
If you know that you are gonna hurt me, don't ever enter into my life.
Coz it hurts so bad.
If you really wanna make me happy, then DO it, instead of just TALKing.
But if u can't, just leave.
Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. *finger cross*

A broken heart is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself to fix it.

i'm leaving you, 2009

Can you believe its gonna be a new year tomorrow? :) I think the time flies soooo fast. My 2009 journey has finally gonna be ended very very soon. I discovered so many things throughout the year and just can't wait for 2010, I don't know why. Waiting for new adventures and drama(s) maybe? Hehe.. Let's see some pages of chapter 2009. gotta get some help from my picture album(s) to recover my memory loss. lol I warn you this entry could be sooo long and full of picturesss :P

The year started with my internship during my final year in UiTM. I did my internship with Scope International M Sdn Bhd, through a training program called SIMA. After get through IQ test, interview and passed, I accepted to join this program for 3 months and now I'm working with the company. :) Through this program, I learned so many things, met fantastic new friends and got a job with yummy pay. Alhamdulillah :)

gorgeous fantastic new friends

my trainer, Kak Sha

had a great time with them!

bowling outing with SIMA students

CMS girls!

seafood outing!

steamboat outing with Dubai team :)

at Janda Baik. Selection Program before got job offer.
stressful but yet fun!

end of SIMA program.

convocation!

Then my new baby was born named Beba :) She is just 10 months now and I love her! I never took any picture of her and show it publicly coz I'm just afraid somebody might fall in love with her and take her away from me! Hehe.. She's a CAR laa, everyone! :P

My love story was full of drama(s) this year. With some unwanted extra actor/actress to mess spice up our scenes, with more emotions and character, ups and down(S), endless arguments but trapped with love inside, all I can say is it was just damn tiriiiiing. Still, whatever happened between us, we took it as lesson and still hold each other strongly. Never let go even for a second. ♥ 2009 didn't treat us well, such a bad year to us I can say, and now we are happily leaving 2009. :))

my 1st sand colouring ever.

ice cream date ♥

webcam-whoring with him :P

after Beba's accident :(
admire the way he protecting me from that stupid taxi driver who hit us! :)

our 3rd anniversary ♥
romantic dinner at Bora Asmara :)

during pja's surprise birthday :)

hair disaster to both!

his surprise birthday party ♥

One of the girls in family got married this year with her love. I'm happy for her but things gonna be slightly different after this. :( Agak kurang best di situ. Farid, please take a good care of her, I believe you will. Bila lagi nak bagi anak sedara comel-comel for us? hehe.. Other than my cousin, my BFF also got married this year. And now tengah sarat mengandung. Alhamdulillah :)

Intan's Wedding. Be her bridesmaid for both receptions.

Ili liyana's. My beloved cousin :)

2009: I officially degree graduated and entered new working life. I'm grateful coz all my best efforts during study get rewarded at last. Now, I have my OWN money that I can be proud of. :)

graduated! yay!

officemates

And because I already started working and only off on Friday, all I can say is my time is sooo limited. Quite a tiring year. I miss my campus life :( I even really didn't have enough time for myself, how can I ask for holiday? But luckily I managed to find some time to go for holiday during the 4th quarter. A quick holiday to Malacca with Ameer and big family, and also Pangkor Island and Cameron Highland with my family. There's some plans that I had to cancel at last minute due to my limited time :( I hope next year I will be able to go for some nice places moree than this year. :))

melaka trip!

pangkor!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, everyone! :))