my uʍop ǝpısdn life.

Fuuhhh.. Fuuhhhh.. *bersihkan habuk* Lamanya tak singgah kemari. Its been a while. Miss me peeps? :P awww i know! ♥

What is my current update eh?  OH!

I know how to write uʍop ǝpısdn ! LOL :P

HAHA not only the letters are upside down, my life is! But currently, I'm happy with people around me. But not with certain bad not so good people. *sighh

WORK : Moved to PJ office. Love it coz close with my girls but travel jauh from house :( In terms of workloads, sangat banyak but I'm doing quite well in work. Less or no internal error, high productivity and accuracy among all the team members. :) Bukan perasan sendiri, but we do tracked each and every person's performance EVERYDAY in internal error and productivity. So far, I don't have to pay penalty for errors made!

But yeah, because of that, obviously ada certain people yang dengki and x puas hati!
Lantak pi kat hang la. Like I care? Yang penting, all of us know siapa yg perform well, and who doesn't. I advise u to improve your work than only talk and stab people's back. :)

LOVE : Ryan is grown up now. Bigger and yes, adorable! Kan best kalau Ryan boleh cakap and pamper me like human being do. Tak payah cari BF dah. LOL! Anyway, I did have some crush on someone. But then found out that he's just MARRIED! Adoi.. Heartbroken lagi.. :( My future, di mana kamu?? I'm here :)

FRIENDS : They are being such the bestest people in the world! Always being around me whenever I need them. Did a lot of hangout and catching up now. And I love it! ♥ Thanks sayangsssss... Anyway, something bad happened to one of my BFF. If I know who did that, I'll cut you into pieces, bitch!

FAMILY : I miss my mum! I miss her delicious cook, miss our talk yang merapu sana sini. Bila la nak holiday lagii.. :( Im finding a perfect time to go back and have those things! Wait for me! Anyway, my sisters came down to KL and paid me a visit for two days. Managed to spend one whole day with them ♥ Lama kan x kuar macam ni? :) And hello cousins! Rindu gila tau takkk???

PLANS : I'm going to Perhentian Island in two weeks time. Extremely excited and happy! Oh and I got plan trip to Singapore this June! Also my Johorian friends are planning something for our gathering. Looking forward for it!! ♥ ♥

Oh now I realise there's much UPs than DOWNs. I feel blessed and loved.

Alhamdulillah ♥

p.s : I miss all my long lost friends, KPTM friends to be exact. Syada, C-ha, Mai, jom buat gathering!! Ape cerita ni??

hard.

Sometimes its so hard to understand people who are so close to you.
Sometimes its easier to understand people who are just new to you.
Sometimes you think that you understand him/her, but the actual is you don't.
Why are you so complicated?
I'm getting tired to figure out what's in your mind, and what is actually that you want.
I think I was wrong.
Thought of knowing you the best, in and out.
You prove me that I was wrong, once I found out the truth.
The thing that I didn't know all this while.
Fooled, cheated.
But thanks, at least you gave me something to learn.
To not to trust anyone anymore.
To be stronger than I can ever be.
To stop using my eyes to cry, but to use it to see clearer instead.
Maybe I was blinded before.. By your words, by my trust, by love.
What happened is happened.
We cannot fix it nor change it.
There's no use to regret it now.
I prefer you to do what's the best to build the trust again.
Or at least make me feel worthy.
But if you don't, I can't do anything.
You choose your way, I'll just wait.
Err, wait? Really? Yea, maybe. But not that long.
Cause I'm tired already.
If you choose to waste your time blaming people, I couldn't stop you.
I'll just think that you are making another mistake.
Or you are just don't learn from your MISTAKE.
Its just, don't make me feel like what happened between you and me was a MISTAKE.

Siapa kata bila tua x comel?

Every day, before pergi kerja, I will drop by at this one stall to buy foods for lunch. One day..

Makcik : Nak, ada orang kirim salam.

Me : Uh? Siapa pulak?

Makcik : Ala.. yang semalam ramai2 tu. Yang pakai baju biru belang-belang.

Me : Haha x perasan la makcik. *senyum*

Makcik : Dia suruh makcik mintakkan nombor telefon. Merayu-rayu kat makcik suruh tolong.

Me : *senyum dan buat-buat busy pilih lauk*

Masa nak bayar..

Makcik : Bagi la nombor telefon, nak.*sambil senyum nakal masih berusaha ni!

Me : *senyum lagi* *buat-buat x dengar

Makcik : Mmm.. takpela.. biar dia mintak sendiri kan. Baru gentleman.dah give up :P
Me : Haha aah suruh mintak sendiri. :) legaaa

5 few days after that, tak singgah kedai makcik tu sebab cuti and x sempat. Dan semalam..

Makcik : Da lama x datang, ada orang menanti tau!

Me : *senyum* (ahh dia ingat la pulak)

Betul ke dia tunggu? Adoi! Nasib baik x terjumpa lagi mamat belang-belang tu. Entah macam mana. Lantak la! (mati la kalau jumpa and dia mintak betul2. Nak bagi excuse apa?)

Yang penting makcik itu sangat comel! Muka ala-ala keibuan macam Fauziah Nawi. Sangat comel bila senyum nakal usik2 saya! Naughty tau makcik ni! See u this afternoon makcik! ;)

Lied uh?

1 thing that you need to know about me is I freakin hate LIAR!
Don't ever dare to lie to me.
Sooner or later, I'll found it out myself.
Cause I'm not stupid like you, fool!
Stupid!

p.s. : I can be bad too, just to remind you if you're forgotten.

Important people.

Hello I'm back with a better mood than my previous post :) Just wanna share a few thoughts about something that bugging on my mind. Hmmm where should I start?

OK. If you are single, besides your family, your friends are gonna be on your top list, right? Especially when you are away from family, studying or working. So, automatically, your friends gonna be your shoulder, your ears, your partner, your everything. BUT once you have found your another half, someone new, you tend to forget those friends who always being with you before. Your priority has changed, of course.

Then, come out another issue when your friends said that you're changed, madly in love with new bf and left them behind. When you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, every single thing that happen to you, you surely wanna share it with him/her first, then only your best friends. If you have some problems, bad or good news, or anything, your partner's smiley face is gonna be the first one to pop up in your mind. Don't lie. Then when you have some problems with your partner, then only you turn to your friends and family. Again, don't lie.

Well, I can say that this is normal, especially to girl. A girl, when she really love somebody, her priority will go straight towards him. Lagi lagi yang baru tengah hangat bercinta. When you're so busy with work or assignments, your time is limited. To divide your time between BF and friends, is quite hard. Plus, you even don't have time for your own. Nanti tak spend time dgn bf/gf, merajuk pulak. Lebihkan bf/gf, kawan pulak terasa. Ada la cakap2 belakang, "24/7 berkepit jeee". It is just as simple as this. What you choose is what you will get. Friend or BF? I'll let you choose yourself.

To me, changes happen in life. Just deal with it.

To the person as above, to me too, don't forget your friends coz they are part of your life before and now and in future. BF can come and go but friends stay. Do spend some of your precious time with them, sometimes. I know, it's not that you're forgetting them, you are just busy and there are someone more important (its not that friends are not important, just less than the ONE).

To friends of the person above, you should support him/her no matter what instead of complaining. And to be happy seeing your friend is happy. Be a little bit understanding, and put yourself in their shoes. Maybe one day, when you found your another half, you will be like them. Do not complain, talking at their back, and say bad things that might hurt your friend and his/her partner. Ohh come on, friends.. You shouldn't do that (I mean if you are really FRIENDS).

As my experience, I think my friends are more understanding and supportive. :)) i love you!
Well, I don't know if they talked at my back, or I just don't bother. :) hehe..
So, any complain about me? :P

BOTH OF YOU, FRIENDS AND BF, ARE IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE!

just go away. thanks!

MAISARAH BENCI STALKER!

sekian.

si pathethic.

kesian. kesian. kesian.

That's the most perfect word for u.

Get a life, ok? ;) hahaha..

I don't have to compete with you, coz I won already. LOSER! :P

You Know You Love Me..

STOP trying your level best to take what is MINE, because you'll never get the chance dear.. Spell this, N-E-V-E-R, never! So, stop dreaming like a child. Just back off :)

XOXO,
Queen M

A Book And Its Cover.

People tend to be judgmental. People tend to be discriminative. We always hear and say "Don't Judge A Book By Its Cover". Just hear and say, not practice it. Most of the people will judge a person by his/her physical appearance. Yes, its true. First impression is important. But believe me, most of your first impression could be wrong.

Let me give you some examples. People who wear tudung will be judged as a good person, pray 5times a day, kind-hearted, virgin, bla bla bla ; and people who wear skirts will be judged as a social person, smoke, drink, not virgin, don't pray, etc.. I know some people who wear tudung, but pregnant before married, smoking, backstabber, and some, just wear tudung in front of their family. And doesn't mean, people who wear skirts is a bad person. It is just an appearance, don't reflects it into their personality. Because you might be wrong.

To me, I don't judge any person without knowing them personally. With hope that other people will judge me fairly and try to get to know me well. I'm not an angel, I'm not perfect, I'm just trying to be myself. I learnt a lot from this almost 23years of life. I saw how people react towards others by their stupid first impression. I heard what people said about somebody by their judgmental first impression. And I had enough. Doesn't mean that he's cute and small, he's not matured and can't take care of me. Doesn't mean he's a student now, I will have no bright future with him. I don't need to find a handsome, tall, successful person with stable career, big car, etc to be my partner. Because I might be cheated, played, or divorced. Who knows? I'm happy with my life now. :) Thank you!


Well, I just wanna say it clearly here that I don't care about your judgmental impression towards others without get to know them by yourself. Because if you did that, you just show me that you're not matured enough. And yea, I feel sorry for u. Just remember one thing, people do change :)