tummy's wishes

I haven't had anything for today. Like seriously. No food, no drinks AT ALL. I don't know why. Thought of having dinner, but I lost my appetite already. sigh.. But right now, I feel a lil bit hungry :( and it's almost 3am. Hence, I browse some websites and look what I've found. Menu for tomorrow!

BK's whopper! I couldn't remember when is the last time I had this!

Subway! 12 inch pls!!

Spagetti or pasta! Nyum Nyum!!

Jom BBQ!!! I would do anything for this!!!

Satay!! Naaaakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

Oh mann, I couldn't google more coz my tummy started to scream! But i want everything: ice cream, laksa johor, otak-otak, chicken chop, soto with begedil, masak lemak cili api, nasi lemak, kenny rogers, arghh so many! Ibu, I really need you here :(

important criteria :)

Boyfriend/Hubby important criteria

1. no piercing/tattoo.
2. no alcohol.
3. no drugs.
4. no free sex/flirtin.
5. no hair color other than black and brown.

As simple as that. Can't cope with it? Then go and don't ever come back! Yes, I'm not that cool (if this is your definition of 'cool'). And I don't care. You choose!

p.s : I rather to lose someone that I love, knowing that those things are more important than me. I'm not changing u for who u are, but I'm changing u to be a better person.

taggie

Tagged by Nita :)

USING ONLY ONE WORD! It's not as easy as you might think! Copy and change the answers to suit you and pass it on. It's really hard to only use one word answers. Be sure to tag the person you received it from!

Where is your cell phone?

Here

Your hair?

Straight

Your mother?

best-est!

Your father?

buncit

Your favorite place?

room

Your dream last night?

forgot

Your favorite drink?

mango (fresh fruit)

What room you are in?

bedroom

Your hobby?

surfing

Your fear?

death

Where do you want to be in 6 years?

gold coast (3rd honeymoon maybe? haha)

Where were you last night?

home

Muffins?

Vanilla choc

Wish list item?

RM1,000,000 pls?

Where you grew up?

johore

Last thing you did?

texting

What are you wearing?

pyjamas

Your TV?

off

Your pet(s)?

Ryan

Friends?

supportive

Your life?

Fun!

Your mood?

bored

Missing someone?

yes

Car?

MYvi

Something you're not wearing?

wig

Your favorite store?

toomuch

Your favorite color?

PINK!

When is the last time you laughed?

Yesterday

Last time you cried?

loongtimeago :)

Who will resend this?

readers

One place that I go to over and over?

office! sigh

One person who emails me regularly?

officemates. haha

beautiful and award ♥

I got this award from Fifi Aswana like ages ago. Thanks fifi! :)
and now baru nak buat. hehe sorry!

7 facts about me.

1. I'm going to turn 24 this year, but still feel like I'm 20. :)

2. Sangat kuat makan pedas. Makan apa2 pun kena ada sambal, cili padi or sambal belacan. hehe.. Drinks, no tea for me pls! Cold drinks only, thank you :P

3. Pet lover. And I love my sugar glider so much! ♥

4. Hates waiting, unorganized plan, and org yang cakap besar and POYO. oh tidak lupa backstabber, back talker, talam dua muka, stalker, etc.

5. Addicted to pink and shopping. Ok proven that I'm a girl. hehe

6. Hoping for true love! But not that desperate. I can live by my own, seriously. :)

7. Failed bab jalan, sgt susah nak hafal jalan and selalu kena tanya org kalau nak pergi mana2 and sesat :(

p.s : I'll pass and give this award to all of my readers. Because each one of u is beautiful in your own way ♥ muahhh :)

i'm going crazy people. SOS!

Urgh! Can’t stop looking at this, again again and over again. It drives me crazyyyy..

24th, pls be hurry. Can I just skip 19th 20th 21st 22nd and 23rd pls? 5 more days baby, and I will have a new baby! :D

I love living life. I am happy!

Appreciate what you have now. Stop giving up, and live without limits.
Live your life to the fullest, and you will be happy. ♥

A perfect getaway ♥

Kebelakangan ini, agak berat sebelah sikit, bila I only update at my tumblr but not here :P Sorry blogger. My schedule is so hectic, and I only can give you guys a short updates only. And I prefer to write it up on tumblr. hehe.. Today half day kerja, so boleh update banyak sikit here :)

Anyways, I just got back from Perhentian Island. A perfect getaway to release all the pressure and problems. I really had fun there, so does Ryan :)) Chilling, sun bathing on floating bed, snorkeling with fishes and shark (like for real, and the big one y'all!), taiti game, karaoke session, BBQ and dinner along the beach (so romantic!), playing around with Ryan on the sand, ohh so much to tell! The bad thing is, my pink camera rosak on the 2nd day! Damn you! Spoil the holiday a bit, coz can't take much pictures :( , but still we had our fun! Im gonna upload the pictures once the camera is fixed, all right? :)

And the result from all the fun is, TANNED SKIN! haha.. I don't mind gelap sikit (ok tipu!) but sangat tak nak sun burnt yg pedih2 tu. But now, dah ada tanda2 pedih tu. Oh no! :( Body-ache every part of the body, and penat x hilang lagi. Need some more sleep and rest, I think. So, goodbye people! Zzzzz...


p.s : Oh Ryan is found :) and I tried to upload Ryan's video here for hundreds time, but loading sangat lambat and never work out. So yeah, tak dapat la tgk. For those yg ada my FB, can watch it there :)

come back to me! :(

Attention : 

RYAN IS MISSING!!!

and this is for real ok! :((

I'm such a bad mummy. I'm careless. I'm stupid. Yes, say whatever you wanna say! If only that can bring Ryan back to me! :((

Ryan, i'm sorry. Come back to mummy pls?? ;(

p.s : I recorded Ryan on a video a few minutes before he lost. :( Gonna upload later! Not in a good mood now! *cry again*

my uʍop ǝpısdn life.

Fuuhhh.. Fuuhhhh.. *bersihkan habuk* Lamanya tak singgah kemari. Its been a while. Miss me peeps? :P awww i know! ♥

What is my current update eh?  OH!

I know how to write uʍop ǝpısdn ! LOL :P

HAHA not only the letters are upside down, my life is! But currently, I'm happy with people around me. But not with certain bad not so good people. *sighh

WORK : Moved to PJ office. Love it coz close with my girls but travel jauh from house :( In terms of workloads, sangat banyak but I'm doing quite well in work. Less or no internal error, high productivity and accuracy among all the team members. :) Bukan perasan sendiri, but we do tracked each and every person's performance EVERYDAY in internal error and productivity. So far, I don't have to pay penalty for errors made!

But yeah, because of that, obviously ada certain people yang dengki and x puas hati!
Lantak pi kat hang la. Like I care? Yang penting, all of us know siapa yg perform well, and who doesn't. I advise u to improve your work than only talk and stab people's back. :)

LOVE : Ryan is grown up now. Bigger and yes, adorable! Kan best kalau Ryan boleh cakap and pamper me like human being do. Tak payah cari BF dah. LOL! Anyway, I did have some crush on someone. But then found out that he's just MARRIED! Adoi.. Heartbroken lagi.. :( My future, di mana kamu?? I'm here :)

FRIENDS : They are being such the bestest people in the world! Always being around me whenever I need them. Did a lot of hangout and catching up now. And I love it! ♥ Thanks sayangsssss... Anyway, something bad happened to one of my BFF. If I know who did that, I'll cut you into pieces, bitch!

FAMILY : I miss my mum! I miss her delicious cook, miss our talk yang merapu sana sini. Bila la nak holiday lagii.. :( Im finding a perfect time to go back and have those things! Wait for me! Anyway, my sisters came down to KL and paid me a visit for two days. Managed to spend one whole day with them ♥ Lama kan x kuar macam ni? :) And hello cousins! Rindu gila tau takkk???

PLANS : I'm going to Perhentian Island in two weeks time. Extremely excited and happy! Oh and I got plan trip to Singapore this June! Also my Johorian friends are planning something for our gathering. Looking forward for it!! ♥ ♥

Oh now I realise there's much UPs than DOWNs. I feel blessed and loved.

Alhamdulillah ♥

p.s : I miss all my long lost friends, KPTM friends to be exact. Syada, C-ha, Mai, jom buat gathering!! Ape cerita ni??

A lil bit lie and truth.

Do not be sad for being without someone who is happy being without you; it is not fair, isn't?

Hey, can't you see I'm smiling over here?

:)

Ask me :)

I signed up for formspring acc now. Another social network, but totally different from Facebook, Myspace, Friendster, etc.. Its a website designed to ask questions to that particular person, regarding anything. Even you don't have formspring acc, you can ask me questions. And I will answer as honest as I can :) Do you have any questions now? Click below link! :)

http://www.formspring.me/mysarah

Don't worry, I won't bite, just don't be naughty ok? ;)

♥

7 things.

1. I don't like you when you are mad and shout at me.

2. I don't like you when you behave like a child.

3. I don't like you when you are with your jerk friends.

4. I don't like you when you don't understand my feelings.

5. I don't like you when you ignore me.

6. I don't like you when you are not my bf.

7. I don't like you coz you make me love you. :(

private.

I'm considering to private my blog after this. But still haven't decide yet.

Yes? Or No?

p.s : Knowing that my mum read my blog ALL THIS WHILE, is the last thing that I wanted to know.

So, blame her! Hahaha :p

When you have them, you couldn't ask for more. :)

Saya agak malas mahu update story kebelakangan ini.
Tak tahu kenapa.
Tapi saya cuba ya? ;)

I did lot of catching up with friends now, lately.
One thing that I rarely do before.
Since I'm single now, I don't have to choose anymore.
So yeah, that's a good thing being single. :)

I really missed all my good friends, long lost bestfriends.
Its not I didn't feel the same before, but somehow the time limits everything.
As soon as I'm single, I realise that my friends are still be there for me.
Watching from far all this while, and catch me when I fall. ♥
They never mad at me. They understand my situation. Thank you!

 

Long lost bestfriends since Diploma Sem 1.

 

My best girlfriends since Diploma.

 

Some of my crazy colleagues.

And not forgetting, a hang out session with my lovely babes Yun, Erynn, Zatie.

No picture taken :(

Love love love you guys!

Good boy! ♥

 

Ryan : Mummy, I want Starbucks too. Can I have some? I promise I'll be a good boy. (sambil buat muka kesian)

Me : Ok baby. You can have some. Mummy loves you.

Ryan : Slurpp.. This is heaven, mummy! Love it! ♥

And yes, Ryan is behaving good now. He didn't poo poo and shi shi on Mummy's hand. But only on others hand :P I'm sorry guys! haha

hard.

Sometimes its so hard to understand people who are so close to you.
Sometimes its easier to understand people who are just new to you.
Sometimes you think that you understand him/her, but the actual is you don't.
Why are you so complicated?
I'm getting tired to figure out what's in your mind, and what is actually that you want.
I think I was wrong.
Thought of knowing you the best, in and out.
You prove me that I was wrong, once I found out the truth.
The thing that I didn't know all this while.
Fooled, cheated.
But thanks, at least you gave me something to learn.
To not to trust anyone anymore.
To be stronger than I can ever be.
To stop using my eyes to cry, but to use it to see clearer instead.
Maybe I was blinded before.. By your words, by my trust, by love.
What happened is happened.
We cannot fix it nor change it.
There's no use to regret it now.
I prefer you to do what's the best to build the trust again.
Or at least make me feel worthy.
But if you don't, I can't do anything.
You choose your way, I'll just wait.
Err, wait? Really? Yea, maybe. But not that long.
Cause I'm tired already.
If you choose to waste your time blaming people, I couldn't stop you.
I'll just think that you are making another mistake.
Or you are just don't learn from your MISTAKE.
Its just, don't make me feel like what happened between you and me was a MISTAKE.

maybe?

maybe I should just STOP.

*sigh*

I'm lucky.

I'm recovering. :))

It's a learning process now. To know him better, and for him to know myself better.
Some may say that it's too early for us to see each other after the 'day'. I also thought about it. But hell about others, we do what we want to do.

We are happy now. Yes, I know by doing this, we could hardly move on. We are still love each other, and that's the fact. We are still hoping, I know. Even so, we didn't push ourselves to get together back. That's a good thing. :) Just let it be like it should be. We are not in a rush. I don't want to make a wrong decision, again. I believe, he feels the same. If we really meant to be together, sooner or later, we'll be together, again. Thanks for those who always pray for us and care about our relationship. Some friends feel sad. Me? You would never know what I feel inside.

I want to thank zillion times to each one of you who keeps on supporting me all this while. During my ups and DOWNS. For always asking me whether I'm ok or not. For always be there when I need someone to talk badly. For giving me strength to move on. For keep me accompany to make me feel that I am not alone. For all the advices, and those magical words to heal the pain. For putting positive thinking in to my mind. For all the L♥VE you gave me. I couldn't ask for more. I couldn't pay you back. But I'll try my best to be the best-est friend you ever had.

♥

Kyle and Bella.. You really made my day. Even you Kyle, naughty boy. I love both of you so much. Both of you actually are the reason why me and him still can talk and sit together. Kyle, do behave with daddy. Don't bite, don't shout, be friendly. And also, don't make out with Bella. Both of you are still babiesss.. :) hehe.. Hopefully, you will be as tame as Bella soon. :))

♥

Family members especially his mum. Other family members didn't know the actually reason  why we broke up except his mum. I'm sorry for not telling you guys but its better to left it unsaid. Still, u guys support me endlessly. Thank you. To mama (his mum), thank you for your advices and supports, and for loving me as your daughter, not as your son's GF. You're the coolest mum I ever known! Seriously.

♥

And lastly, you. You know you are the best thing that could ever happen in my life. You know how I feel, you know how deep my love is. Thanks for always be there for me. Thanks for granting your promise, to be friends after we broke up. I'll pray for your happiness no matter with who. 4 years memories with you, will remain in my heart. I promise! Do take a BIG care of yourself. I know you can do it without me. I miss you. :(

♥ 

Yes, I'm lucky to have these people in my life! :)

THANK YOU!!

new haircut.

Any comments? :)

My adorable babies ♥

Yesterday was a tiring day. Went to Shah Alam to see my BF. Hehe my new BF is actually a sugar glider! :P His name is Kyle, 2 months old and handsome! But he is soooo garaaaaaaang :( I found it very hard to tame him and feels like giving up already. :( be strong mai! He's unlike Bella (another sugar glider) who is soo manja with me and cutee! We choose Kyle because he's so handsome. Got nice fur and colour. But yeahh, so garang! I think Kyle memang x pernah kena pegang orang or being pampered with his previous owner. I mean the actual owner is sugar glider's breeder. So yeah, got A LOT of sugar glider and his purpose is to make big profit only! sigh.. Hopefully Kyle will be as tame as Bella soon! *finger crossed!*

Oh ya.. And I also did my haircut at Shah Alam yesterday. Loveeee it so much! :D The hairdresser is also cute maaa.. :P Next time, I only wanna do my haircut at Shah Alam and with Steve only! Happy :) Anyway, enjoy the pictures of my adorable babies ♥

This is Bella ♥ (female)
See, manja kan dia? She was just playing around with me. :)

This is Kyle ♥ (male)

See, garang kan dia? :( hehe.. I was trying to calm him down.

Can you see their differences? :P But one thing similar about them is they are cuteeeeee.. Rasa nak squeeze2 and gigit2 je! Haha.. Love both of them. Muahhhh! ♥

Friday is always be my HAPPY day!

Waiting for Friday againnnn... :))
Going to meet my future BF!
Yippie!

oh, I'm in love! ♥

broken.

Its broken, at last.
Like for real!
I'm falling down.
Who's gonna catch me now?
I'm losing everything.
Everything that I used to have.
Everything that I used to love.
Everything!
One by one memory flashes back.
Shoot! I am just stupid, don't I?
Everyone look at me.
Everyone feel sorry for me.
Hey, I don't need that!
I just need the truth, from the beginning.
Haihh.. Its just a matter of time.

Siapa kata bila tua x comel?

Every day, before pergi kerja, I will drop by at this one stall to buy foods for lunch. One day..

Makcik : Nak, ada orang kirim salam.

Me : Uh? Siapa pulak?

Makcik : Ala.. yang semalam ramai2 tu. Yang pakai baju biru belang-belang.

Me : Haha x perasan la makcik. *senyum*

Makcik : Dia suruh makcik mintakkan nombor telefon. Merayu-rayu kat makcik suruh tolong.

Me : *senyum dan buat-buat busy pilih lauk*

Masa nak bayar..

Makcik : Bagi la nombor telefon, nak.*sambil senyum nakal masih berusaha ni!

Me : *senyum lagi* *buat-buat x dengar

Makcik : Mmm.. takpela.. biar dia mintak sendiri kan. Baru gentleman.dah give up :P
Me : Haha aah suruh mintak sendiri. :) legaaa

5 few days after that, tak singgah kedai makcik tu sebab cuti and x sempat. Dan semalam..

Makcik : Da lama x datang, ada orang menanti tau!

Me : *senyum* (ahh dia ingat la pulak)

Betul ke dia tunggu? Adoi! Nasib baik x terjumpa lagi mamat belang-belang tu. Entah macam mana. Lantak la! (mati la kalau jumpa and dia mintak betul2. Nak bagi excuse apa?)

Yang penting makcik itu sangat comel! Muka ala-ala keibuan macam Fauziah Nawi. Sangat comel bila senyum nakal usik2 saya! Naughty tau makcik ni! See u this afternoon makcik! ;)

I'll be fine.

Heart is beating fast.
Mind couldn't stop thinking.
Mostly, negative thoughts.
What and why? Don't ask.
Coz me myself also can't find the root of this matter.
Mahu keraskan hati. Sekeras kerasnya.
Tapi tak mahu keras seperti ice.
Yang akan melt akhirnya.
Mungkin keras seperti batu.
Ya, sekeras itu. Hopefully boleh.
Maybe I should stop thinking.
Thinking about this matter.
No I rephrase, STOP thinking about YOU.
How I wish it could be that easy.
Can I just press on 'shift' and 'del' of my keyboard of LIFE which can permanently delete you?
How I wish those keys exist.
If you know that you are gonna hurt me, don't ever enter into my life.
Coz it hurts so bad.
If you really wanna make me happy, then DO it, instead of just TALKing.
But if u can't, just leave.
Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. *finger cross*

A broken heart is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken than hurt yourself to fix it.

next!

counting days.
FRIDAY, come fast! :D

i'm currently

creating something for this blog.
tungguuuuuu.... :)

p.s : EH, MAI. nama blog ni dah ditukar ye? ohh yesss.
more relax and chill and shorter. :)

Beautiful WEEKENDS.

Saturday. Work!
Sunday. Work!
But I like it like that sometimes .
Weird, but its true. :)

Right or wrong?

I don't know whether this is right or wrong. I just don't bother.
Cause I'm tired already. *sighh
:(

Lied uh?

1 thing that you need to know about me is I freakin hate LIAR!
Don't ever dare to lie to me.
Sooner or later, I'll found it out myself.
Cause I'm not stupid like you, fool!
Stupid!

p.s. : I can be bad too, just to remind you if you're forgotten.

new year's resolution?

When new year is about to arrive, most of the people will set their new year's resolution. I don't know why, but people would really like 'need' to have new year's resolution, as they say not me. While their last year's resolution(S) haven't achieved yet and being carried forward to the next year. So what is this new year resolution thing for if you don't really want to do it, or at least have any effort to accomplish it? Some people would forgot about their "new year's resolutions" as soon as February started, and back to their old habit. Agree? *sigh

As for me, I don't really have new year's resolution but I do have some hopes for myself. Hope to be a BETTER person. Yes, better is the keyword. Better muslimah, have better life, better career, better daughter, better sister, better gf, better friend, better money :P, better everything. I know I couldn't achieve all of that, or being the best or perfect for everyone, every time. I'll just try my very best, ok?

How to achieve that, I'll figure out myself. With some helps of few important people in my life. A gentle reminder would help, I think! ;) InsyaAllah.

Happy ber'resolutions'!